Saturday, April 14, 2012

Why do people tell me love my self what does that mean

Why do people tell me love my self what does that mean
what does that mean ? what wrong with hating you self if you don't like what you see.i have been hating my self since I was child I have defects in physical some I can't correct with seurgy
i was told ugly looking its true every guy told me how much I was worth nothing it seem,they told me other girls are better I know they are better then me I was compared like pisses of equipment drop in bin I live in bin I don't come of the bin no more because I will be throwing back in there again .it make me sad I have no value in comparison to girls who every thing that i,d like to have for example good looking fit tall intelligenen and good interesting personality .but I have none of these things guys tell constantly I am not worth the effort over and over I have told now it is imprtint on my brain that I have no value .i have lot physical defects
i have fat face which is more fatter on one side
i have turned eye on the right + short sighted
i have chronic weight problm I try lose weight but I can't
i have bad teeth and very bad hair and my skin is all holes in my face I am very short in height .i have also very good iq I have no job to get leave dead end town where I live .i failed exams in collage due to bulling and lecture told me I was not smart enough they knew I have learning problem but did not care I have going counsellors my entire life due to a lot of pain people caused me from people who have easier time then me.i can't get boyfriend because my age and how I look and situation and constantly rejection keeps coming I have stop trying because I know what exacly going to say before say it exact same sort of lines they I can nealy say it for them with them opening mouth
may belong in bin men like treated me like trash any way and I have no value none

so why tell me love my self when I can't the mirror it struggle to look at it because my face look I HAVE MONEY PLASTIC SUERGURY it would make me worse looking I am bad enough

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